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Something funny that they never taught you about grief in school; it is very complex, yet it can appear suddenly and forcefully as a tsunami, leaving one literally choking for air.

Or it can hover, lurking in the shadows, ready to drift into the open, like the sun poking through the clouds and eventually outshining any feelings of joy, passion, excitement, boredom, melancholy or whatever might be the dominant feeling of the moment.

And most cruelly of all, it can seemingly disappear, sometimes for weeks at a time, leaving the unwary caught by surprise when it unequivocally demands attention yet again. Continue reading “Good (?) Grief”

Let’s get real here.  No glossing over the facts.

My life situation SUCKS.

No matter how much I travel, exercise, socialize, meditate, get massages, pedicures, go to my therapist, psychic, friends, family, love my kids, succeed in business or anything else, at the end of the day, I am a single fucking parent and I never wanted to be in this position and I HATE this. Continue reading “Hate”

It has been a while since I’ve posted.  I’ve been doing a fair amount of private pen-to-paper journaling; much easier on the road than lugging my computer.  Besides, it crashed out on me again, and I was wanting to drop things into bare essentials for our trip to Shambhala Mountain Center (www.shambhalamountain.org) during the first week of July.

No cell phone, computer, internet, tv, videos.  Tent camping and bathhouses all the way.

Continue reading “We're baaaaack”

I’m glad to report that as of today, at this moment, I feel so supported by so many people and want to let you all know how grateful I am to everyone. It’s mind boggling to think about all of the ways in which my children and I have felt the love and support of so many. Continue reading “In Gratitude”

It’s always hectic visiting home (MN). Usually just before I leave for MN, I always think I’ve booked too much time here , but inevitably by the end of the trip, I’m wedging in visits with more and more people. And always, I leave having socialized heavily and feeling like I need a vacation.

This time is no different, except that I will be leaving on a (real) vacation within two weeks of returning to AL after this trip. Oh yeah, and this is the first time I’ve ever been back here without Mike, my fellow native St. Paulite. Continue reading “You can't go home again”

Our nomadic summer continues. Wow. It’s forced me to figure out how to put video on my ipod (single mom’s best friend on the road, I suspect).

We’re having a few friends over for a bonfire tonight and tomorrow it will be home to MN. Though it has finally occurred to me that after 11 years in Alabama, that it too, is really home (as much as I have resisted that idea). Continue reading “On the Road Again”

A couple of big positives over the last few days, involving both business and personal life.

After an exceedingly stressful two weeks in the real estate business, I managed to purchase my next fixer-upper (thanks to all of you—and you know who you are–who helped make this possible) and finally finally hammer down a workable contract on my 4th Avenue house (the one with posted “after” photos).  This sale has been nearly as difficult as birthing Avery.  The underwriting process for the buyer has put me through the ringer, leaving me feeling like a choice candidate for a nervous breakdown several times this month. Continue reading “Life is Good”