Space Cleansing

It’s been an intense weekend. Many social events, and also a more private happening. A cleansing of the “trauma energy” in the space in my basement where Mike died.

I’ve had flashbacks of that moment when I realized that it was my husband lying on the floor of the basement and knowing (though not wanting to admit) that he was dead.

I have had very negative feelings about that space, before and after Mike’s death. So, my mom and my massage therapist came over and we smudged the space with sage and an intention to cleanse the trauma and chaos of that space. We wrote positive words/messages on the wall of the basement near where Mike’s accident occurred. We told stories, had a light lunch and told the negative energy that it is no longer welcome in this house.

My massage therapist said that she felt that Mike’s energy is very present, gentle and caring in this house, but an older, negative energy also existed near the space where he died, likely from the previous occupants of the house. But our cleansing activities should take care of all of the negative and trauma energy–i.e. remove it from the house completely. And intuitively, I believe this is true. But instead of feeling ligher, I feel sad and emotionally exhausted.

I cried for 2 hours last night after we did this work. I’ve felt really edgy all day today. Sad to the core. Crying feels like a necessary purging. Necessary to regain balance, or something resembling normalcy. Ultimately, I think it will lead to recovery and healing.

I hope Mike’s spirit feels the same way. I’m sure he felt the love as we worked with him.

Thanks Suzanne and mom.